Relationships and friendships are strange in their own way. You decide based on different criterias that you like a person and do social things with them. From time to time you entrust them with personal thoughts and private issues. One might think that the status as a friend is sort of static and they'll be your friend forever. That's unfortunately not how things turn out.
Struggling with a mental issue is scary for the friends of the one who is ill. Times like these reveal which friendship is purely platonic and which has a deeper meaning to the individuals. My most difficult time was ten years ago, the last year of college. It got to the point that I didn't manage to go to school, or even leave the house for that matter. I had to redo the whole year but that's a different story. Losing friends became reality. Or that might be a bit harsh. Maybe "faded away" describes it better. You end up on one side of the fence with your friends on the other side; I was too embarrased by struggling with whatever it was (it was still so new to me that I wasn't able to describe it) to actually contact my friends and they were probably insecure on how to approach me as well.
In hindsight having me to redo the last year of college might've been a blessing in disguise. I have no idea what I would be doing now, where I'd live etc. Plus I've met so many great people at the University who began studying the same year as I did.
We're all a product of our past. Choices have consequences, either good or bad, and it's not always easy to determine in the longrun what is good and what is bad.
Please remember that ""[y]ou are enough. You are so enough, it's unbelievable how enough you are. "
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