I am ____ enough?

I am not good enough. A line making a really big difference of what you're saying to yourself. Not just there and then, but for the future. Discrediting myself have I done all my life. Whatever I've done it's never enough to give a pat on the back. My therapist asked me why. I couldn't answer that properly. When did I start doing this? Didn't have an answer for that one either.

I am not good enough
I am not good enough
I am not good enough
I am not good enough
I am not good enough

Saying that to myself over the years became an automatic reflex. I had lost before I even tried, resulting in not daring to try anything new. I've stayed within my comfortzone, both physical and mental. I was asked by my therapist how big my feature would have to be to let me be proud of myself. Furthermore, she encouraged me to name of things I've done in the daily life that I could be proud of. She had to give examples but I brushed everything off as absurd to be proud of. Like the days where I've put all of my focus to just getting out, in retrospect I won't say that that is something to be proud of. Everybody does it, right? 

What it all comes down to is rewiring the brain. A cognitive "error" if you like can be fixed. Not as easy as it was to learn it, though. I've mentioned this before. One needs to be in the moment and observe when doing something worth a mention. It's easier to believe what you're saying when you're in the moment and maybe feeling the sense of adrenalin rush, than thinking back to it. Then it's just a memory, easy to disbelief.

So, will you, together with me, make that line and rewrite the sentence?

I am not good enough.