Purpose of being anxious

I think most of us look for an explanation to why something occurs, especially when it's got to do with your own health. Finding a reason to why you feel like you do is one step closer to a treatment, no matter how small the issue is. It's logical for us to do what we can to avoid any feeling of discomfort. Dealing with psychological problems is far more complex than if you've got a broken bone somewhere. You've got to find all the little threads that lead up to a big ball and then start to find a way to make it better. Many, myself included, need some help to reflect and stop the illogical reasoning the mind has taught itself to do.

Can there be any relation to why we, or I in this case, experience anxiety and the symptoms I feel? I'd say yes. First sign is that I am mostly anxious when I'm outside. Why? It is as simple as it is outside, or away from home, I'm not in control over what happens around me. I can't decide other peoples' actions according to my own levels of comfort. I've never been afraid of being attacked, but rather that I don't know how to behave or what to say in a social setting in order to feel accepted, and that's what is frightening to me. All this thinking about what should I say now, did I say something stupid, do I look weird, I've got nothing to contribute, and so on makes my brain go into panic mode. No logical thoughts, only insecure self judgement with no solution to how to stop them, keep coming in a rapid face. 

Physiologically, anxiety is how the body reacts to a panic mode: Can't focus on one thing, rapid and shallow breathing, feeling warm, incapable of staying calm. How people might react is different from person to person. The body acts like it is responding a real threat, only that there is no real threat. Your social anxiety has led to a miswiring in your head, and it happens so fast you most likely don't even realize it. This can be sorted out by the help of a therapist. as he or she is on the outside to give input on how you're thinking and guide you in the right direction.

This is just my own thoughts, and I don't claim to have any knowledge about it other than my own experiences. If you feel the need to talk to someone I suggest consulting a therapist who actually has studied this and can help you. Never feel any shame for asking a professional for help. Instead, be proud because you're dealing with your problems. Just don't go alone hiding it from everyone. Let people be your fanclub. Be stronger together.