Time flies

Time flies even if you're not depressed. We're already in March and it feels like we just celebrated Christmas. Same thing happens when you're spending time at home, like I've done during my depression. No day is different. It's so easy to forget to do what you loved to do before. To be fair, the depression is just covering your excitement you have for your hobbies.

Some of my online friends asked to see my photos, which I am more than gladly to show. I also realized that it's been quite a while since I was outside with the camera. It's definitely not boring. Everything I know is self taught, meaning that I sort of knowing what I do, but not why. The constant fear of failure and also having my low skill level exposed.

It's a relief when other people give feedback for something you've done or made. I used to think that it was just out of pity, or they didn't want to hurt my feelings when my self-confidence was low already. The confidence is given a boost now. 

But when can I be satisfied with my own work? What makes a photo good, for example? The motive and quality are two obvious criterias. Just as the technical aspect is important, the emotions need to be present. With that I mean what I felt when I was outside taking the photos, moodvise and physical, noises and sound matter too. A good photo is the result of a stabile and relaxed me. Therefore I have the presumption that I won't approve anything I do when I'm not feeling well. Forcing myself rarely works, just as if I were to buy any new clothes. I never find something I like when I'm looking for a special item. Still, I'm not saying that I should wait untill I'm superhappy. Defining what you feel takes practice. What you might consider as not feeling well could just as easy just be a feeling of content: You don't feel superduper, nor do you feel like you've hit rock bottom.  To be honest, I dislike the assumption that you need to feel great all day, every day. Why can't we be happy with just being content? As a final thing, I thought I'd share a photo which I like to think of as a favourite.