Stuck in a moment

... that you can't get out of? I know the feeling. I am a person who cherish my daily routines, wether they're good or bad. Routines help me structure a day and sort of prepare myself. One example is that I need to go outside to get some food and I know myself well enough to know I'll only delay it unless I don't set a time in advance for any chores to be done. But how do routines that might seem positive actually prevent any progression?

Becoming dependent of any strategy to cope with the daily life isn't all good. What you end up with is that you are anxious of having an anxiety attack. So you keep the symptoms in control but not the actual reasons behind them.

I'm trying to admit that I need change, that change in itself is good. Take work, for example. The other day came an e-mail where a company invited me to an interview for a position. The job is sort of relatable to what I do and at the same time not. What will I do if I'm offered the job? Making a desicision is difficult because I quickly feel uneasy at the thought of doing something I don't know anything about. Maybe that's reason enough to do to exactly that, in general and not just about this job interview. Finding new inspirations and environments will make my brain to actively think again instead of going on this neverending autopilot. Additionaly, I always try to keep myself in the "safe surroundings" and not doing what might be good for me. Think what I'm trying to say is that one needs to be selfish in ones own life. You shouldn't take anyone other into consideration if your own happiness is at stake.